It's called verbal diarrhea and I think have it... sometimes

I've come to the conclusion that as of late, when it comes to verbally expressing myself, my mind and my mouth have not been formally introduced. I was in class the other night with a splitting headache and about 5 minutes away from giving a group presentation. I had my notes, knew the information but what came out of my mouth was the equivalent of verbal diarrhea. Gross, I know. But by the expression on my classmates' faces, you'd think that that's exactly what happened. I looked over at my group-mate and he just said "that's good, that's enough." At the time I didn't really care, I just wanted to go home and get some Advil. But the next morning, I was mortified. Was it simply because I'm SO over this program, simply because I haven't been feeling well? Or do I really have a problem?

Less than a decade ago, I could argue a point to death and make some damn good sense about it- or at least have you thinking it made sense. Or even when I was really quiet about a subject, when I did speak it was clear and knowledgeable. Now though... I can't even convince myself that what I'm saying makes sense. The next day on my 40 minute commute to class, I basically talked to myself (don't judge) and repeated what I should have said during the presentation, this time explaining it clearly. Why the hell couldn't I do that the night before?!

When I started to think about it more, I realized that its been like this over the last few years where even in my conversations with friends and family, it has been a challenge.

Perhaps a public speaking intervention class is in order. Let's just hope I don't sound like: